Any experience away from home is going to be terrifying.
This became especially true when I moved onto my college campus.
It is not so much that there is anything wrong with this campus, it is beautiful and most of my professors are great.
I however am not great. My roommate and I do not exactly connect and perhaps it is because of this that I hate my dorm room.
I am not all that great at making new friends as I panic when having to start a new conversation.
I have found that the struggle is in being myself.
The fact that I can finally relax knowing that I can leave is in a lot of ways sad to me but also enlightening.
College is a time to make lifelong friends and because I suck at making friends I know I should have surrounded myself with people I had already known.I am returning home, not necessarily a failure at being on my own but instead putting myself into a healthier situation for the sake of my mental sake.
I encourage the people on this campus to look at themselves and offer help to other because maybe if someone had my first semester would not have ended with me wanting to claw my eyes out.
I do not blame this school for my anxiety or my issues or for my wanting to leave.
But I do blame myself and the lack of connection with other people.
Other people have found ways to escape their anxiety problems...
Read ways to help:
www.escapeanxiety.com/blog/
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