But to be honest I have never been much of a person to seek out medication when I have something wrong with me. And to be quite frank I hate seeing doctors. They in fact give me more anxiety than I have originally going in to see them. I wish the answer to my problem were as simple as taking a few pills when I think I am going to fall apart,but truth be told?
When I think about taking other medications for my condition... I judge myself more than anybody else could.
I am afraid of a lifetime dependency on medication to make me function like everybody else does without it. How am I to identify with anyone when they do not need prescriptions to enjoy this life?
I also know that it is dumb of me to refuse this sort of help simply based on what I think of taking prescriptions. I also know it is even more obsurd that in doing this I am not even judging people who do I try to understand them as I am friends with plenty of them.
I wish there was a part of me that could speak up about my disorder enough so that I could find help.I wish that I would not judge myself to a point that I can no longer stand to look at myself in the mirror and honestly? I wish sometimes I enjoyed feeling the way I do like everyone else seems to.
From what I have seen though, is that those friends of mine who are taking pills for their disorders still have the really bad days like I do. And it is not to say that their disorder is at the same level as mine perhaps it is more severe...Whichever is may be as far as I have watched those medications do not always work.
I do however find myself on 2 medications that treat the beforehand and aftermath of my anxiety problems. My form of anxiety comes with tight chest and not being able to the breath once it comes so I have an inhaler that keeps my airways open so that I will not pass out. For the aftermath,I have pills that coat my stomach so I can eat after I panic and get stomach ulcers from my anxiety attacks.
I am not completely relinquished from medical help as I would like to be,but I am glad in knowing I can look at the other ways I manage my anxiety problems.
Wanna hear another opinion from a person with anxiety on taking medications?
Kelly Wynne
Link: http://www.justcutthebullshit.com/home/2016/10/23/wzmmtu7y6e01i44uoumpg7ov53hqgq
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